When you are in a Raiding Guild, it is nice to be needed.
I really enjoy my guild. Even though I am a relative newcomer (I've been there for just shy of a year now), I feel like I have been accepted into their bizarre little family and have become one of them. I have seen the highs and lows of progression with them; stood defiantly in front of the Lich King as he decimated our raid, exulted with them in triumph when we overcame that fight, and was there to see my guildmate Bomba break down in great, heaving sobs every time someone mentioned the phrase "Ulduar Hard Modes".
When I joined Shadowgarde I was a complete noob when it came to raiding. I had actually never even set foot in a raid before, but I knew that I wanted to. I did everything I could to get my gear up to par (including PUGing Trial of the Crusader, which was equivalent to getting a 10-man and a 25-man root canal every week) and eventually I was invited to heal our guild ICC run. There were a lot of growing pains as I learned the ropes, and my guildmates were great in helping me through it. I think that in the end I evolved into a very good raider and that I've earned my raid spot.
It is a little disconcerting, on the other hand, to feel completely indispensable.
Don't get me wrong, I love the fact that any time there is a raid called I get an instant invite. I love being a go-to healer and someone my guild can count on to always be there. But if I can't make it for whatever reason (say, like having a pregnant wife have a mental meltdown on a raid night), I don't want to feel like I'm the sole reason that the raid gets canceled. Frankly, I can't take the guilt.
It's not just me, either. At this point we are so hard up for healers that we don't have enough experienced, raid-ready healers to allow much flexibility at all. If one of our regular healers miss a raid, it's a good bet that it will end up being canceled, or at least significantly delayed while we scour tradechat for a PUGer whose knuckles don't drag on the ground. We have picked up a new recruit who has been raiding with us for a few weeks now who looks like he's going to work out really well, but we need more.
We are a very large guild full of all sorts of people from raiders to PVPers to casuals and socials. It's not unusual to have 25 people online at raid time and still not have enough people who are interested in or geared for raiding. Being such an incredibly diverse guild is a double-edged sword; on one hand the interaction and feeling of family is wonderfully comforting and compelling, while at the same time it's very discouraging to feel like you're PUGing within your own guild.
So... Any healers on Sargeras looking for a new guild?